Held Back

This song is done to the tune of the song "So Long (My Friend)" by dcTalk.


Verse 1: You think that you can tell me what to do.
Well then, I guess it’s true.
But do you ever think of how I feel at all?

You keep me back from everything you see,
That might do harm to me.
But do you realize a have a life to live?

I know you’re doing this because you care
But I don’t think it’s fair.
I just want a chance to be a normal kid.

Pre-Chorus: Don’t worry. I’ll be fine.
Let me live a life that’s mine
Not yours

Chorus: I know you love me and I’m glad that you do (my dad)
But I’m annoyed by things that you do (my dad)
Can’t I have a say?
(2x)

Verse 2: My church is going on a trip again
Why can’t I go with them?
They’re going to a Christian camp one hour away.

And you said no a million times before
‘Cause camp is only for
People with lives and clearly that just isn’t me

Pre-chorus
Chorus

Bridge: If you won’t let me leave you
(Keep me with you every day)
Will I ever go away?
(‘Cause you can’t make me stay)
‘Cause I’m going to college
(In just three years so…)
Why?

Chorus

The choice

How could you do this to me?
Am I that horrible to keep?

I will try not to kick as much
I will try not to cry too much
I promise I will be good
Just give me a chance to live

Mommy you are all I have
Mommy you are all I need
Mommy you are the one I love
Mommy please

Don’t sign that paper
Don’t lie on that table
Don’t do this to me
Don’t do this to me

Don’t listen to the doctors
They don’t know a thing
Don’t forget the pictures of what will become of me
My head on a table, my legs far from me
They will wrap me in a blanket while you will hide your face
My blood will pierce the white that hides your shame

Mommy you are all I have
Mommy you are all I need
Mommy you are the one I love
Mommy please
Don’t do this to me
Don’t do this to me

Song Lyrics

Ever so gently falling
Like raindrops from the sky
I feel as though fait is calling
As I keep passing it by and by

I wanna break free
I wanna move on
I wanna leave this all behind

I wish that I’d forget
The pain I’ve been through
I gotta keep going
I gotta do all I can do

I wanna break free
I wanna move on
I wanna leave this all behind

My dreams just keep playing
I can go where I please
My life just keeps shaping
Hope and dreams never cease
(Insturmental)
I am free
I am never going back
I am moving onto the future

Empty Tank

Tired from not sleeping,
Constantly thinking about you,
What you look like,
What we could have become

chorus:
My heart is so curious
Without him I am lost
My mind is blank
I am an empty tank

I’m gonna lean my head against this window
Close my eyes and go to sleep


I’ll wake up in the next town
With thoughts beyond deep
With thoughts beyond deep
The days will go by, I will just act

Chorus :
My heart is curious
Without him I am lost
My mind is blank
I am an empty tank

As the days go bye, I can only look back
At the joyful times, the laughter
At the bad times, the pain
I wonder if he misses me as much as I miss him?

2x chorus:
My heart is curious
Without him I am lost
My mind is blank
I am an empty tank
My heart is curious
Without him I am lost
My mind is blank
I am an empty tank

Lyrics...or something like that.

I look in the mirror and hate what I see
Wake up every morning and don't see you beside me.
And every time I see your face, hear your voice
It's a painful reminder of all the things I can't have.

All I can think of are the nights I cried over you
Because I actually believed that you wanted me too.
I can't help thinking of everything you threw away.
Then they come rushing back to me: the words I couldn't say.

Without you- scars on my arms, tears in my eyes
Regrets surround me, I can't run and hide.
I let you change me, now I don't know who I am.
I'm left with your apathy, your lies, pieces of my heart.

I lie down to sleep, praying to be taken.
You were the world, and it dissolved before my eyes.
And I think maybe, if I could have changed it
These feelings wouldn't die tonight.

This is Love

Verse 1:

The lights go off

Let's start this dance again.

Yes, I've been here before

I know how it's going to end

I just want to feel loved

I'll give up all I am

But I don't know how to stop

I'm no longer the innocent lamb

Chorus:

Then the light shines through

Bright as day

And through it all

I hear you say:

I am love

I care for you

I am love

Let me show you

I am love

Here's my life for you

Verse 2:

How foolish am I

Who revels in darkness

Denying true love

Betraying it with a kiss

Chorus:

And yet your light shines through

Bright as day

And through it all

I hear you say:

I am love

I care for you

I am love

Let me show you

I am love

Here's my life for you

Friends No More

When I see your face I want to say Hi,
But when you see mine, you pass right by.
We used to be friends, but that was a joke; you lied.
When you told me we couldn’t be friends, I cried.

I remember when we were kids, we always played together,
You said to me one day, that we would be friends forever.
I thought things would work out, I thought they would be better.
When I went on vacation I would always send you a letter.

I remember when I would do something wrong you would punch,
When you came over in the morning you would stay till the noon for lunch.
If someone would eat it would get on your nerves when they crunch.
When we took a picture you wouldn’t stand straight you would hunch.

Ever since these two years pat by everything has been great,
Ever since we haven’t been friends I have been on dates.
Every memory we have together I put in a crate.
So I hope you remember this, if you want to come back you’ll never be too late.

The Crazed Fan

This song was written from the perspective of the mentally unstable fan that shot Dimebag Darrel durring a concert and was shot right after his crime.


Verse 1:
As Dimebag takes the stage
I realized it was worth the wage
I think of him often
The rage in my heart he has softened

Verse 2:
As I looked up at my hero
I know I am a zero
This feeling of despair I cannot mend
unless I violently bring his life to an end

Chorus:
The weight of what I have done
cause me to drop my gun
I gladly accept my tregic death
because of my mental problems, thanks to meth

Dimebag

Verse One:
Your talent was an inspiration to us all
I still remember the day we saw you fall
Fans everywhere were blindsighted
guitarists around to world you united

Verse Two:
Becuase of your talent on your guitar
you and your band went very far
The day you were shot on stage
all rockers could not contain their rage

Chorus:
You had to much left to give
Why couldn't he just let you live?
Questions are now all that remain
Knowing he paid the price keeps me sane

Center Of It All

My broken soul
My broken spirit
kneels before you now
my pride is crushed
and then your healing power
it renews my everything

At the center of it all
I see you on the cross
saying
I love you
I love you
I love you

All my problems
All mistakes
they try to draw me back
my past is calling
then your grace and strength
it helps me to move on

At the center of it all
I see you on the cross
saying
I love you
I love you
I love you

Every time i fall
you help me to my feet

You Saved Me

You Saved Me
Verse 1:
I do nothing,
I am nothing,
Yet, you still died for me.

You do everything,
You are everything,
Yet, you still died for me.

Chorus:
On the cross you hung for me,
All my sin is on your back,
You went through all the pain,
For the perfection that I lack.
You blood flows down and covered me,
Your last jagged-breath was used,
For forgiveness in my worthless life,
Why you did this, I’m confused.

Verse 2:
I do evil things,
I mess up too much,
Yet, you still died for me.

You do perfect things,
You never mess up,
Yet, you died for me.

Bridge:
To you, I’m everything,
Your little girl, your daughter,
You love me and want me home,
I kneel face down, at your altar.

Chorus:
On the cross you hung for me,
All my sin is on your back,
You went through all the pain,
For the perfection that I lack.
You blood flows down and covered me,
Your last jagged-breath was used,
For forgiveness in my worthless life,
Why you did this, I’m confused. (2x)

First Words

Daddy, the very first word that I spoke
I wouldn't have said it if I knew our relationship would be a joke

Father, the word rings through my head
You had no influence, it was as if you were already dead

Papa, without you life has no more meaning
Even though I begged and cried it didn't stop you from leaving

Dad, I'm writing this to you
Maybe if you'd read this then you'd finally get the clue

You there
Can't you see I'm bleeding?
I didn't get many words from you except when you were screaming

Leader, you loved money more than me
I wouldn't have chased after all those boys if you had loved and cherished me

Provider, you always made enough money for us all
But you couldn't make enough time to care for me at all

Vater, you thought your leaving made me mad
But my sadness was greater than any anger that I had

Vati, you were the reason that I cried
Sometimes I wonder if you'd have cared if I had died

Pa, you think that I'm a slut
But it's because of you that I'm so very far down in this rut

Begetter, now you think that I'm a w**re
But all I ever wanted was for you to love me more

Daughter, all I wanted was your respect
I made more money than any person you've ever met
My darling, my baby, I bought these gifts for you
Maybe if I'd buy you another present I could show my love for you
I don't know why you're angry, you're still in your prime
Your still young now maybe later I'll give you some of my time

Daddy, Father, Leader, Provider, Vater, Vati, Pa, Begetter
The only thing I think is time, that would make our relationship better