First Words

Daddy, the very first word that I spoke
I wouldn't have said it if I knew our relationship would be a joke

Father, the word rings through my head
You had no influence, it was as if you were already dead

Papa, without you life has no more meaning
Even though I begged and cried it didn't stop you from leaving

Dad, I'm writing this to you
Maybe if you'd read this then you'd finally get the clue

You there
Can't you see I'm bleeding?
I didn't get many words from you except when you were screaming

Leader, you loved money more than me
I wouldn't have chased after all those boys if you had loved and cherished me

Provider, you always made enough money for us all
But you couldn't make enough time to care for me at all

Vater, you thought your leaving made me mad
But my sadness was greater than any anger that I had

Vati, you were the reason that I cried
Sometimes I wonder if you'd have cared if I had died

Pa, you think that I'm a slut
But it's because of you that I'm so very far down in this rut

Begetter, now you think that I'm a w**re
But all I ever wanted was for you to love me more

Daughter, all I wanted was your respect
I made more money than any person you've ever met
My darling, my baby, I bought these gifts for you
Maybe if I'd buy you another present I could show my love for you
I don't know why you're angry, you're still in your prime
Your still young now maybe later I'll give you some of my time

Daddy, Father, Leader, Provider, Vater, Vati, Pa, Begetter
The only thing I think is time, that would make our relationship better