My Outbox.

These letters are based on things I said/wrote in 7th and 8th grade. The letters are written to my best friend, (although some details about her are not exactly accurate) from me. Some of the things may not sound like they were written by me, but that's who I was back then. I'm happy to say that I am a completely different person now, and I am stronger because of what I went through.

Most dearest D,

January 13^th

We haven’t written in forever. How’s school going? I’m doing alright. I really want S, I really do. His mom just came to pick him up while I was writing this and he made sure to come up and say bye to me. AHH :)

Everyone at school is saying I have no chance with him cause he’s a junior. Like I care what they think. X and I are talking again – which makes me super happy. I love him so much, not as a boyfriend or anything, just as a best friend. He means more to me than anything. BTW, I got this super cute new blue+white striped shirt that you would love. It actually makes me look semi-attractive. And the scars from last time are fading, which is definitely good cause they were pretty bad.

Much Love.

-S

D,

January 18^th

I’m glad to hear that your grades are so good, you are so smart, LOL. And yes, I’m trying to stop with the cutting, you know I wish I could, but I don't really feel like I deserve anything better. I haven’t for at least a couple of weeks. Anyways, we won our basketball game today, I even got to start! Are you coming to our game next week? Heehee, S commented on my myspace yesterday! But X is drifting away, he hasn’t been talking to me. He’s only been talking to A and B. It’s totally depressing. Everyone hates me. Also we can’t chill next weekend cause I’m grounded again. UGH.

-S

P.S- Life Sucks.

P.P.S. I’m sending you a bunch of yellow skittles :)

D,

January 24^th

I did it again. You’re gonna be so mad at me. I know I told you I was trying to stop but I couldn’t help it! I’ve had the worst week ever. S has a girlfriend. What a surprise. I don’t even know why I thought he’d ever like me. I’m so ugly. I’m worthless. I’m losing all my friends too. X and B didn’t say one word to me at school today. Oh, and your boyfriend hates me. UGH. Well at least I’m ungrounded now, wanna hang out soon?

-S

D,

January 30^th

I’m grounded AGAIN. I hate my life. Nobody cares. Not even you. I spend all my time crying, and bleeding. There’s no reason to live. Tell X I always loved him. Bye.

-S

P.S. don’t try to stop me.