Self as Writer

I don't think that I am a very good writer. My ideas are often fantastic, but I lack the ability to communicate the story in the fullness that it is in my thoughts. When I try to put my ideas into words, it seems as if I killed the mystery and beauty of the idea. I especially enjoy writing pieces that are deeply connected to my emotions and thought-life. Writing about people’s actions (not their feelings) bores me. One of my major weaknesses as a writer is that I find it impossible to turn off the editor part of my brain. My perfectionism has ruined many good pieces of writing; I am never happy with my work. When I write, my goal is that my passion and ideas will shine through and be what the reader remembers. I never want a reader to walk away remembering my grammar; I want the reader to remember the thoughts that were conveyed through that grammar. I find inspiration for my writing through other people’s works (I am an avid reader), but mainly through my own heartaches and joys.