prayer

Hey Father,
Lord I thank you for always hearing me. I thank you that no matter how many times I blow you off to do other things that you are always waiting with your arms wide open. I am so sorry for the way I have been rejecting you. I use excuses that sound pitiful even in my own ears. “I am just so busy” or “I am too tired”. Please forgive my apathy. God I am sick and tired of trying to seek after you when “I have enough time” but when my life gets busy, putting you in second place. I could try to justify this in my own head by saying that I still do devotions every night and sometimes twice a day even! But it is not about how much I do, it is about the attitude in which I complete it. You say in your Word that you despise “lukewarm Christians”; please show me how to be a burning hot Christian for You. Help me to really be the Christian that everyone thinks I am. Please show me what it means to live my life a sacrifice, daily giving you my all. Please help me learn to love You and find my sole source of contentment and joy in You,
Jesus, I am rubbed raw from trying to seek after you on my own. Please give me the strength and desire. You promise in James 4:8 that you will dram close to those who draw close to You. Thank you that all your promises are always true and that you will never lose interest in me, like I lose interest in you.
Please help me to learn to rid my life of the distractions that take my focus away from you. Thank you so much for loving me in spite of all this.
Amen.